My life in a box

Didn't pick up a ticket on the way out

Oh well. I won’t be foretting it any time soon.

People: nightmares make everything worse.

I didn't lie

I just didn’t say everything. Last years depression was different, I was falling for someone and it failed. But this was bad. I understand now why people don’t understand how I do things and why.

It’s because I don’t even understand.

I don’t understand how I can even start to smile and say ok. I don’t understand why I act mean and play nice. I don’t get how I can have so much fun with someone while someone else rips my fun-have into tiny tiny shreds.

I had a good night in general. The date at least.

I had a crappy night overall and it upsets me that I didn’t suck it up and enjoy everything for what it was.

Too often I talk about me.

I just want this headach gone.

And the real one too.

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No one cares about the main character in a work- it’s always the supporting characters, the villain or the foil they like most.

This isn’t making me feel better so I’m gone - bye

BRYAN

yes he was a percussionist back in the day.

He was almost as good at rhythm as I was and he was better with mallets.

Now he’s neither because he quit progressing and I kept learning.

It’s a sad thing, his wasted potential.

I give him crap about it all the time :P

People spotlight 1: Alex Arave

She’s a swell kid. I’ll have more to say later so stay tuned

ugh

45 minute walks home from the school in uniform suck. Those shoes are no longer the most comfy in the world.

far from finished, I just need a backup

Manned Mission to Mars A. Didymus Benson Major Workman Ashley Buckley Chief Martin Calvin Walker AS3 Rachel Cook Laura Dicky MAN ON MARS CHALLENGES: The journey to Mars will be an expensive one. With NASA’s shrinking budget this becomes harder and harder to imagine possibly funding. Other major issues include the distance from Earth where any immediate help in case of emergency will be near impossible, and the time it takes to get there and back provide unique issues of their own as the astronauts will be on more confined for a longer time than usual. The lack of food water and oxygen presents a serious risk to the explorers. SOLUTIONS: NASA’s new Ares rockets attend to many of these problems. The Ares project is a new rocket system that will change the way Americans, and the world, see space. Ares I launches with the Orion CEV (crew exploration vehicle) where the Ares IV launches equipment for the crew of the Orion. At the ISS the team and their gear meet up and start out on an adventure through space. Ares and Orion spacecraft are already in testing phase and could be ready by 2018. Because it is already underway, NASA will not have to start from scratch and throw together the mission, they can use what they have developed to make this possible. Every few years, Mars’ orbital pattern and the Earth’s get closer, if a launch is scheduled accordingly, the mission length can be shortened considerably and will therefore lower the cost of supplies, fuel, and so forth. BENEFITS: There are numerous benefits to a manned mission to mars. The initiative itself will bring forth new products and technology (as we saw with the effort on the moon landing). The advancements made in handling the mission alone will be priceless. American morale will be at a high point. With this conquest, one giant leap for mankind makes a running long jump for the United States. Americans will be proud, happy, and brought together in patriotism knowing that theirs is a country that is leaving its mark on the solar system and beating the rest of the world to it. With a man on Mars we can do so much that a rover cannot. Exploring and collecting samples to a more full extent, bringing back more than pictures and digital maps. If glaciers are discovered, they can provide a vital key to future missions where refilling water will be made simple after melting and purification.

Everyone slips up, I try not to. No excuses, I’ll see what I can do next time.

Ellie I'm Not Gone

just a little disoriented,

sorry I couldn’t email that stuff, this week was hectic.

NEWZ FLASH!

I have found a show.

A show with an excellent soundtrack and deep characters.

A show that has a thickening plot and a good message.

A show that applies rule #910 of female gaming anatomy.

A show you can sit and watch for hours.

A show that’s better than Doctor Who.

Xena: Warrior Princess, starting Lucy Lawless

Pessimistic mood

Who knew that I’ve been sick this whole weekend?

Out of them, who showed that they cared?

:(

:/

Sad thing about me:

I’m a fixed point in time, I never progress or go back, I just change while everyone else goes on.

It seems very likely I’m never to grow up and do something with myself but instead talk about things i’m going to do. I don’t really like being a point, just doing the same thing and being the same person all the time. I just want to shake free of the restrictions and distractions and do.

Meh, people like me as this me so it’s not all bad, I just don’t get it sometimes.

I need to get out more and do.

I found my wallet!